H R Haldeman Diaries Collection January 18 1969 – April 30 1973 National Archives and Records Administration Online Public Access Catalog Identifier 7787364 Page 1 Sunday April 29 The papers today are full of columns and analysis calling for resignations and all which caused me after reading through them quickly to say to Jo first thing this morning that if the President really gets a hold of this thing what's he's going to do is call us up there today and tell us that he's concluded that we have to resign and that from his viewpoint that's where he has to come out but it'll be interesting to see whether he does I still at that point had the feeling that there could very well be a better course for us also Kissinger called just to say I'm thinking of you Says the Restons and all those people are out for blood He rambled on a bit Obviously he is out of the play and sort of feeling sorry about it President called at noon right after I got home from church from Camp David said he was wondering if we could get up there at 1 30 and that John had said he wanted to meet with the President alone and the President felt he should do that and also he would of course meet with me alone Felt it was appropriate for him to do so in view of the decisions that I want to present to you and then he said that all I can say is that I hope that Ehrlichman's as big a man as you are when I talk with him He said everybody's trying to get at him to give him advice but he's talked to no one except that he spent virtually all day yesterday with Rogers He's concluded that we've got to face up to what's right for the Presidency and he was sure I would agree with that Said he would talk to me first when we got up there Ziegler then called on the phone said he wanted to tell me that the President's feeling very strongly now is that both Ehrlichman and I should volunteer a resignation and that he's going to ask us to do that He's thought it through Ziegler argued with him last night and this morning He's not concerned about my stepping up to it And if Ehrlichman comes in and fights it he's going to stick to it and force him to do it He feels that if we take a leave we'll be eaten alive and it won't work A resignation will work Wants a letter saying that we considered leave but asked for resignation instead so it won't be a period of uncertainty He's confident we'll be cleared and will show our innocence but at this time we feel we must resign He's also made the firm H R Haldeman Diaries Collection January 18 1969 – April 30 1973 National Archives and Records Administration Online Public Access Catalog Identifier 7787364 Page 2 decision that he will fire Dean tomorrow So his plan is one to accept the voluntary resignations of Haldeman and Ehrlichman and then tomorrow fire Dean He definitely will separate Dean totally out Will say that he accepts the responsibility he's going to try and bring this back Apparently said to Ron I made this decision in Florida last week and what happened now I called Wilson and reported this to him and he said Ehrlichman should not put himself in a position where the President has to remove him he hopes he will do what the President wants him to do he should not fight it it won't help him I told Ehrlichman that on the helicopter on the way up to Camp David and he said he wanted to think about it and we didn't talk any further on the helicopter When we got there Ziegler said he wanted to see me and he came out went for a walk while we were waiting over at Laurel He was quite alarmed because he said the President has made another firm decision that he’s communicated to Ron this morning which is that he too is going to resign Ron said he's deadly serious and absolutely firm on it I told him that I was sure that was not the case that it was part of his steeling himself for meeting with us that he's creating a big crisis that he knew he couldn't meet in order to be able to meet the lesser crisis that he has to meet I told Ron to go over to the President and tell him I was ready to meet with him Ron said I'll tell him you're going to go along and I said you can't tell him that he's got to ask me and I've got to say it to him don't give him any indication simply tell him I'm ready to meet with him When I got to Aspen the President was in terrible shape Shook hands with me which is the first time he's ever done that Told me to come look at the view out the window then stepped to the door and said let's go outside and look at the flowers and all So we were looking at the tulips from the Aspen porch talking about the beauty and all and as we started back in he said well I have to enjoy it because I may not be alive much longer We got inside and he went through a discourse saying that while nobody knows it and he's not a publicly religious man that it's a fact that he has prayed on his knees every night that he's been in the Presidential office And that H R Haldeman Diaries Collection January 18 1969 – April 30 1973 National Archives and Records Administration Online Public Access Catalog Identifier 7787364 Page 3 he's prayed hard over this decision and it's the toughest decision he's ever made He made the points on why he had to do it but he's come to the conclusion that he has to have our resignations He wants us to stay on to handle the transition Then he went through his whole pitch about how he's really the guilty one He said he's thought it all through and that he was the one that started Colson out on his projects he was the one who told Dean to cover-up he was the one who made Mitchell Attorney General and later his campaign manager and so on And that he now has to face that and live with it and that for that reason after he gets his other things completed that he too will probably have to resign He never said that directly but implied it I made the pitch that he can't make that kind of a move that Ehrlichman and I are expendable and where there's a problem we can step out and deal with it but he can't do it He doesn't have that luxury He's got to stay in the office he's got to pull things back together and move them upward and that he can He said he thinks Ehrlichman feels he should resign and he got that impression on the phone last night Apparently Ehrlichman told him that he had evidence that the President knew about the fake cable about Diem and that the President really was the one who had ordered all these acts and that he's got to face up to that fact I guess that really jarred him which well it might He says he's going to make Elliot Richardson Attorney General he's going to force Kleindienst to resign today and he's going to announce both of those Monday night He told me about Tricia that he had told the family not to come up to Camp David but when he walked out last night into the living room there was Tricia sitting there She said she and David and Julie had stayed up most of the night before talking about this and that she had just come up to tell him that they all loved him He's getting very sentimental went through the whole thing about how Ehrlichman and I are the two best men he knows and goes through all that kind of thing On that note I left having assured him that I disagreed with this decision as I had with a few other decisions he'd made but that I had had my input and that I would abide by the decision I would do everything I could to implement it and make sure it came out right H R Haldeman Diaries Collection January 18 1969 – April 30 1973 National Archives and Records Administration Online Public Access Catalog Identifier 7787364 Page 4 I went back over to Laurel and Ehrlichnian went over to Aspen to meet with him Ehrlichman was over there about a half hour then the President called me back and Ehrlichman left President reviewed the Ehrlichman meeting with me He said he's concerned because he thinks that Ehrlichman wants him to admit that he ordered illegal acts but apparently Ehrlichman agreed to the resignation So he was pretty relieved about that Then Ehrlichman and I had a phone call with Wilson from Laurel while we were working out our letters of resignation He suggested one that we insist Dean be fired tonight in the same breath as us because if he's as smart as he might be he'll get his resignation in in time for the papers tomorrow if we resign out ahead of him And second that both of us should announce in our letters our meeting with the US Attorney and the committee counsel He told Ehrlichman to strike his words in his letter about his appreciation for his opportunity to serve the President he feels it's his burden to appreciate us not us him Feels that we must now move on a very affirmative open basis Our meetings should be at the lawyer's office they have a good room to do it We should come and go openly and not sneak around or hide And he hit hard on the point that the President must not say anything complimentary about Dean that that's absolutely essential I think we've got that point through President called John and me back over at 5 30 we reviewed our letters and the release plan and all of that He had Bill Rogers come in at 6 00 President said that he had emphasized the national security area with Elliot and the fact that they must not get into that in the investigation Then he had us read our letters of resignation Rogers had a few points of correction and that was the end The President got into somewhat of the emotional mood again as John and I were leaving but we finally got out and he remained to have dinner with Rogers and then to get back to work on his speech So today April 28 April 29 is the end of my White House career Jo notified the families I had called them all this morning to say I was going to take a leave and Jo called them to say we had changed it to a resignation Covered the bases with them on that End of April 2-- oops I said earlier April 28 It’s April 29 so that’s the end of April 29